I'm done with my family.

So basically my last caie is on 5th May. And from 6th May my mother has enrolled me into 3 classes. And they're not just ohh 40 minute classes. EACH CLASS IS OF 3 HOURS!! Environmental management, chemistry and Computer. Now I haven't studied EM in my life and it's been 2 years since I even looked at computer (I'm a bio student). And she wants me to give Environmental management to counter for an A I got....like it's an A!! NOT A B OR C!!!

SHE WANTS ME TO GIVE THESE 3 SUBJECTS IN OCT/NOV. I haven't even finished syllabus of chemistry and it's literally my weakest subject. I've gotten all A* and bam, a D in chemistry. And she doesn't care...she never does. Bro I don't even know alif be of em and computer and I HATE computer!! I'm a bio student why does she want me to give computer (an extra subject cuz she wants me to get 9A*) and I'll also give bio, maths, physics in may/June next year. And then she's gonna make me do FSC. What's the freaking point of giving 10 subjects in O'levels if you want me to do FSC and become a doctor and you're making me give comp???

My whole life she hasn't cared on what I do. I'm always the second child, the neglected one. It's just her and her first born and now all of a sudden she gave me this attention today and it's just not sitting right with me. I said no I can't give all 3 I have zero prep and she said she'll make sure I study and keep an eye on me. No I don't want you to do that?? WHWRE WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU THESE PAST 15 YEARS! NOW I CAN DO IT ON MY OWN...

Like I'm okay with giving one or 2 subjects. But I hate computer and chemistry...more than anything. I don't wanna give in Oct Nov and the fact she'll only accept an A* and if I don't get one.....well then I'm a failure in the shape of her second son

I don't understand what's so wrong with us second child. In my whole extended family, the second child is neglected but mine just takes it to a whole another level cuz atleast the others try to deny it. Mine says openly yeah she loves her first born more. Not caring about my feelings at all!!

Anyways... I'd be really grateful if someone helped me out in chem and computer. Where do I study? How do you study? Which books are the best and notes recommendations please