I am so sorry to lose her....Aisa kyu hua...the only one that accepted me...bhagwan muje please ek mauka or de do...

Will i ever get the girl back that loved me so much? My first and last love...I took it for granted...

Alright so we had long fights...I tried to leave her several times and because of that her "feelings" were gone for me...I am a teenager (16M) i have bad looks, I am skinny and I am not the guy and girl would ever give her attention... although I am understanding and have a great personality I have no physical traits to impress someone. She was the one who accepted me even after my insecurities....i still think it was a miracle...but man oh man I lost the person that cared for me the most...my only one...the only girl that loved me...I was so immature at that relationship stage... although it was my first relationship i think because of that I was so immature. God I am so sorry....we had 6 months of relationship until we broke up in February...i tried to get her back but she simply said "move on" and to "find someone else" she said her feelings were gone. I don't know what to do. Even after the breakup we somehow end up talking with each other although we blocked each other on mostly all platforms except discord, but seriously...when she comes back she just talks with me for few moments and starts to ghost me like...it hurts me so bad.... whenever she contacts me i think she is back but again she says the same thing whenever I try to get her back. She simply ignores me i miss the old version where she used to talk to me for so many hours...man it hurts...to see her ignore me like this, it feels like she is using me for emotional validation...and I don't know....

I can't move on because I constantly think about the fact she will end up with someone else...will marry someone else...and I am here thinking maybe one day she will come back....my first love....I don't know man...

Our relationship was going great until December when everything fell apart and all the fight started. Although it was both of our faults but I DID ACCOUNTABILITY AND ACCEPTED MY MISTAKES BUT STILL she refused to patch up and comeback....I am so sorry god....

I am so imperfect...why God made me like this...why I lost my girl... because of my own fault...I am sorry. God please fix this please....guys will i ever get her back? Please tell me....my mental health isn't good. Please help.