37M4F-Anywhere

So I've been ruminating for a while and decided to say, "Screw it, why not?" In that Spirit:

I'm a heterosexual 37 year old audhd male in the Midwest United States, who's been in systemic generational poverty all my life. I additionally have hEDS (which apparently causes me to look 27, weird right?), I also suffer from MCAS (Which isn't all that bad as I never become sick anymore, just have bizarre allergies mostly to synthetic chemicals), RSD, chronic MDD (likely from the loneliness and rejection), cPTSD, a few TBIs (I really don't know how many, but the last one was some years ago and involved me falling (accident) over 30 feet out of a tree and knocking my self unconscious for a good five minutes), I additionally have S-curve scoliosis with lower lordosis and cervical kyphosis (tech-neck), and suffer from recurrent chronic migraines.

Now all that's out of the way, I'm also 6'0, probably \~160-180 lbs (I haven't been on a scale in some time), with an athletic/slim build, ironically I actually have an hourglass body type. 🤷🏻

Anyway, I've never been on more than first dates, had a relationship, or had sex. I have always been polite, appropriate, and respectful, I also don't touch others without their express permission (in a relationship I could probably handle expressed "ground rules" which would be absolutely fantastic).

I also thankfully know a fair bit about myself: I'm probably anxious attachment, and have no doubt I would be clingy. Physical touch and quality time, followed by acts of service are my love languages, and I adore the thought of being in near constant physical contact with the (potential) woman I'm with all day long, I love the idea of spending all day in bed cuddling and/or cooking and bathing together. I appreciate the ability to simply BE together in shared presence. I have a vastly wide array of interests and have no issue with learning more.

I do tend to form attachment quickly and easily and have always been more geared to being a homebody, and am heavily inclined towards domestic duties (if you name one I know how to do it, there's too many to list in that regard), having someone to do things for has always been the most effective motivator for me.

I'm very, very big about exclusive monogamy in a relationship, I want one woman, preferably forever. I'm very good with children, pets, and even wild animals (I rescued 2 baby opossums and one injured adult and delivered them to wildlife rehabilitation sanctuaries, no one else would do it, so I did). I'm on the fence about having children, ultimately since it would be her body bearing the physical brunt of that I feel that's ultimately her decision, I'd be the SAHD in such a situation regardless.

I have had a TON of different jobs in my life to the point I can confidently say I could physically build an entire house (of several different/combined architectural options) with all the bits & bobs, from the sub-foundations to the roof and everything in between.

As I am on the spectrum I'm also hypersexual, and over the years I've found my interest in that regard has not wanted, foreplay is an absolute must, I don't do "quickies," so we'd need a minimum of an hour (and there's no guarantee it wouldn't go over that). While I don't "have" to, I could conceivably engage in sexual activities multiple times a day everyday, or all day long. So any partner would hopefully be alright with this. Her being enthusiastic about receiving oral from me regularly is also very important to me personally.

I am "white," an eighth Swedish with a fair amount of Ashkenazi, and a "Heinz 57" of European ancestry with both some Native American and Spanish Moor sprinkled in several generations back. I will freely admit to having a physical type preference: slim/slender/athletic, preferably with small breasts (flat chested doesn't bother me in the slightest). I can make allowances however because I realize we're all human and things change over time (obviously), ultimately a healthy and balanced height/weight ratio is fine. While I'm initially more intensely attracted to women of European, African, and/or Persian descent, women who of are mixed ethnicities (not just the ones listed) I find equally delightful in aesthetic; personality and compatibility are however the much larger deciding factors.

You'll likely notice I didn't list body type/shape or height, that's because I do not care about that at all, if you're an adult woman and you actually want and desire me, that's more than I could ever ask for.

As to my personality: I am thoughtful, usually quiet, but can yammer on endlessly if you put me on the right topic, a great listener for whom being info-dumped to is a turn on, near infinite patience (except to cruel, apathetic, and entitled individuals), extremely passionate (as evidenced above), very creative (fiction writer -high fantasy & science fiction- by nature and primary trade), and am unbelievably exhausted from being alone without love, passion, intimacy, co-regulation, deep emotional connection, mutual understanding, and reciprocal care for the entirety of my life.