my abuser is so out of touch

he asks why i smell like cologne. my uber was driven by a man with a strongly fragranced car, the fragrance stuck to my clothes a bit. this was after an 8 hour overnight shift.

but i just feel like he’s so out of touch. you abused me so much i couldn’t stomach being intimate with anybody else and it’s such a low priority for me.

i’m actually crying rn because a man said something weird to me while i was putting on chapstick at work lol. “attraction” will always feel dangerous to me. i don’t think a man could want me without raping me or beating me or cheating on me so i’d rather be alone.

it feels like projection. like YOU liked to use other women to abuse me but quite frankly i am just sick of the entire male species lmfao leave me alone!!! anyways i’m gonna continue crying myself to sleep bye