I am so angry

Pata hai aaj kya hua?

Suddenly i got angry out of no where. I love my friends. I do. But god do they do a very good job at making me angry. Since passing our 12th only I hv been trying to contact and like meet and all. One of them stays within 2 mins of travel. I have asked her so many times to meet up. Chatting on WhatsApp and all. But none of them even fuxhing ask me how I am or check up on me even tho I do. That friend who's home is close made plan to meet me. After I asked so many times. I even agreed to meet even for 10 mins. BECUZ I FUXHING MISS THEM SOOO MUCH. And then she says she wants to go out with her other friends and not me. All of them fucking choose their other friends. Even when I asked them to talk or meet or whatever.

Im just so angry at them. Like yeah life happens, shit happens. That doesnt fuxhing mean that you will fuxhing forget YOUR FRIEND. WHEN EVER YOU FUXHING LIKE. They were the ones once complaining about me being distant and now they are being fuxhing distant after the exams.

One-day one of them came to the city but didnt even fuxhing text me to ask to meet. Went out to cafe and shit. Like the fuxhing two years was nothing of the friendship.

But yeah you can't force people to choose you so I dont even fuching care anymore right now. Im so fucking numb to the point I dont even want any affection or whatsoever.

No matter how much I love my friends, if they will always choose the other friends over me then I can do nothing but look the other way.

I dont even want revenge or some shit. Just stay the fuck away from me and dont come complaining to me saying I dont care and shit. I dont care. If you gonna go ahead and choose other over me and not even valuing me as even a fucking friend then, I dont want this friendship.

I dont have fuxks to care anymore. I dont care, never been anyone's priority and im fine anyway.