How do you deal with ur mental health while living under the same roof as ur abuser?

I just wanna let it out so bad, i want advices, because I have no one to tell what to do.

To the context my father; is really misogynistic and always try to fight w my mother and my mother is no different it takes troll on me so bad, because he looks down on women generally.

About my brother; he has sexually assaulted me when I was 11/12 and he keep doing it while I was asleep, i have another trauma from this. He is also so misogynistic piece of shit. I told my mother about it, she shushed me for the sake of the "family" i couldn't do much.

About my mother; she is literally a boy mom and that women who could do anything for men, i despise more than anyone in my family. She talks to my brother like he didn't did such a bad thing to me. She never takes upfront for me, it hurts so bad to see them being mother-son.

I gave jee, this year, didn't score good. I was trying to get college out of here but no chance. The last year was so tromenting, it was a gap year. All wishes for a uni out of here, i couldn't get one. It feels like dead end, i don't like this at all, they are disappointed with my marks and here my only chance to live a "life" is gone.

The fact that these ppl get to choose everything for me it hurts, they keep pushing me for b tech courses, but my priority is to get out of here, we are not on the same page.

My father don't want to waste money on my education because he is worrying about my marriage expenses and we also not financially well either, but my father paid for my brother's education tho.

I had this burden on me to get a college which is not expensive, which is good and away with btech course, so my life will be easy

And I am just beating myself for all of this, i don't deserve any of this. All I wanted a family that could support me, love me but who am I even asking.. i just wonder why they even choose to birth me, i hate this, everything.

Help me thru this, idk what to do? I don't like this at all, i just wanna live far away from here. Advice me pls what to do for myself?