How to get over not going through traditional school path as an over-achiever since a kid.

I went to community college for 3 years, changing my major almost every year but felt straight with Computer Engineering in the end. It was only by the end of my 2nd year experiencing physics and math in a harder level I never imagined where tutoring or any resources didn’t help me, i felt like this will be a terrible major choice for me. I realized I chose a major that was just high paying and something my family can be proud of me for.

I started looking into Radiologic Sciences which is genuinely my interest, to where i found a public university offering it as a B.S.. I’m going to finish some pre-requisites this semester and was wanting to transfer, spend another year of pre-reqs, and then start the 2 year program at the university. As much as this seemed like a dream to me, i realized I don’t want to spend so much time anymore in school. I want a job and move on with my life. I’m 20 years old female, and started school when I was 17. I should be at my last year of school, not the beginning. However, this will add 3-4 more years of education for a job that usually accepts A.S degrees as their minimum and other certifications.

I want to start vocational school now instead, however i feel stuck and upset. I’ve been always a student that wanted to go to a top university and graduate with a B.S. with my friends but now thinking about vocational school, i feel like im disappointing everyone around me and my friends will end up being way more successful for me. I got accepted to some of the top schools in the country. I know these schools don’t have what i want to do, and they’re more research driven which is not what I’m interested in. I feel stuck and time is running out right now to submit my intent to enroll. I know i should follow what I should do which is vocational school. It’s faster, and is what I want to do.

How can I get over this feeling that I’m ruining myself by not going to college? I’ve always been a person who believed if I go to college, I will be successful. How can I also get over the idea that all my friends are graduating sooner than me and now I feel very left behind? Or how my family members will be disappointed with my decision? Most people in my family also went to college.