I (26F) think my relationship (26M) is falling apart.

I (26F) feel like i’m falling out of love with my boyfriend (26M). We have a 9 month old baby and you’d think watching him be a father would make me fall deeper in love but it’s the exact opposite. It’s made me realize how impatient, rude, condescending, and unpleasant he is. I pray my son doesn’t turn out like him.

Tonight, my baby fell and hit his face. He was screaming crying so I immediately picked him up. My bf came over, took him from my arms, lifted him in the air and said “SEE. THATS WHAT YOU DESERVE. I TOLD YOU BEFORE DONT WALK ON THE SIDE OF THE COUCH, NEXT TIME YOU BETTER LISTEN.” like seriously ???? he’s 9 months old!! he doesn’t know any better!!

Later, my baby fell asleep. I tried to put him down so I could eat dinner but he woke up. He started fussing, not even crying hysterically, just fussing. My boyfriend took him from me, started rocking him, then when he calmed down he tried to sit with him. The baby started fussing again and he said “you’re an evil cunt aren’t you.” I said “don’t say that, no he’s not” then he looked at me and said “shut your mouth. you always have something to say.” now i’m the bad guy cause I was trying to stand up for my baby.

I tried to talk to him later saying this is unacceptable but it turned into him saying “that’s just how i talk,” this is just how i am,” “I don’t know how to be a dad.” Then when I said “you can learn how to be a good dad and a good man.” He said he’s not talking about this and walked away. i tried to get him to come back but he wouldn’t.

i just don’t know how much longer I can do this. it’s so tiring. it’s so demeaning. I don’t know what to do.