I have no friends anymore. Kinda

Hi. I’m iris and I recently lost my last friend not in like a he died way he just left me and now If you can consider your family your friends I have 1 friend my sister and just so lonely I go online see these videos of these big friend groups and I just think to myself “fuck” because every time I’ve gotten a friend group I ruin it and I can’t make new friends I grew up homeschooled and i am to this day I’m behind in class because I’ve lost motivation to do anything I have schoolwork from January to this day just sitting there. And I live 30 minutes away from the nearest town and I have no social skills I’m awkward I get scared to send a message online or talk online or do anything online because it’s scary I’m a sensitive person really sensitive and it’s scary what if I talk to the wrong person what if there mean what if they can’t accept me for who I am. I just want new friends that have my interests people I can just sit and talk with people that like me. Yesterday was my birthday I got a total of 3 happy birthdays 1 from my sister and the other 2 from my parents it was so saddening especially since it was supposed to be a big milestone. If you made it to here thanks sorry for my bad writing or doing anything bad I just kinda typed away and I’m not good at writing but thanks again.