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ok so basically after my 11month long distance relationship, catching feelings for my lesbian friend and being constantly friendzoned and ignored I've given up on love and have been choosing lust but every time I do a hookup or try a one night stand I catch feelings so fast like tonight I went to the park met up with someone from another Reddit sub and we gave eachother bjs got caught but even before we started doing anything I had I guess butterflies and he was so fine and hot asf he was so close to finishing but a security guard came and kicked us out😭 I tell people I'm bi because I've caught feelings for girls before but idk is something wrong with me? Why can't people like me without being lustful? Anyways as you can tell I have no idea what I'm feeling bc this post makes like 0 sense 😭😭