How can I be a good person

I'm a bad person I don't have any principles or morals

I can do any wrong as long as my public image isn't affected or it can be even affected but that's the only thing that matters to me sometimes

I don't specificily do want to hurt anyone

But most of the time I don't think about them sometimes I don't consider them

I never was religious person and never had some one to teach me anything

And I don't have this feelings in me

I made a bad choice and someone I care about called me the most selfish person they ever knew

I didn't intend for it to turn this way

I don't feel any regret or remorse

Actually I kinda feel good sometimes because they did hurt me in the past and now they're struggling because of me

I won't have done this if I knew it would hurt them but after it happen I struggle to regret my action

The only thing I feel is I want to be loved and not be alone

Am I a bad person that don't deserve to be loved?

And how can I have principles and morals and feel a sense of regret?

For the record I don't struggle with empathy

Actually I'm too way empathetic towards people suffering or animals and a lot of feelings I feel it to deep

But I struggles with morals and principles so much

Can anyone afford advice? I'm so lost