My manifestation works but not like i want

So hey I am not native so my English can be a little broken

So recently I wanted to test my manifestation skill by doing small things. I casually affirm a lot of robotic affirmations and live in 4D but it works very rarely

I did the manifestation quest and actually everything from the list had showed up in my 4d

Here is the list

Pure white feather

Plane ( I see them rarely and yesterday I saw 3 in raw )

Rainbow

Golden hour

Fog

No class ( a lot of times ]

And I even saw 2 rainbows in the same day like near each other. I saw everything from it

But the problem is that I set intention and forgot about it and it's not what I want

I want to manifest thought affirmations. I am very bad at "letting go" of my manifestation goals.

And I am too scared to manifest bigger things by the method. And it's like I am stupid cuz I saw literaly results and I still don't kinda believe of my power when I know I am limitless