Not alone, but not lonely? Somewhere in-between.

I have friends, I socialize, I could have partners, but I choose to not. I am unsure what I want, and where I want to go? I'm both content/satisfied, and also yearning for something I don't quite know what it is?

I play games with my friends, I get to enjoy my best friend at home, and I'm able to do whatever it is I want in life, I just don't know what it is that I want? I have tried quite a lot of things, and I know of a lot of things, but nothing interests me?

Again, I am fine, I am content, but something has always felt off. I stopped chasing highs through people, and now I feel very restless? I don't know. This is rambly. Hopefully someone can make sense of it or offer something.

36 male if it's required. I know some of you like to avoid men like the plague, and that is absolutely fair.