pull out + plan b near ovulation

i’m genuinely freaking out, so please don’t be hard on me. i’m new to sex and i’m in my late 20s. i never engaged due to pain problems and also just wanting to wait.

a week ago i had a drunken night with my boyfriend and asked him if he wanted to try penetration. we did, it was pretty painful and not pleasant for me.

he pulled out and did not ejaculate inside me. i checked my app shortly after and saw that i was entering cycle day 13. i took a plan b around 10-11 hours later and have honestly been hysterical ever since.

i’m extremely anxious and depressed, i’ve been spotting almost this whole week with cramps and nausea and overwhelming fear. all i can think about is what a stupid mistake i made for something that i wasn’t even able to enjoy. i’ve probably ruined my life, all just to see if i could do it.

please pray for me and please pray that i’m not pregnant. i’m mortified and terrified of the possibility of that happening after my first (and not so great) time.

i am definitely going back to being celibate after this, and if i ever do try again it will be fully protected. i’m honestly inconsolable over this.

any reassurance, comfort, or kindness would be greatly appreciated