Scanxiety + CUMH Advice

I’m currently 13 weeks pregnant (FTM). I’ve had barely any symptoms at all since the beginning. Sounds amazing but this has made me extremely anxious! I had a scan at 8 weeks and 11 weeks - a heartbeat was detected and everything looked ok at those. I’ve also had NIPT done at week 10 and everything came back low risk.

The few symptoms I did have (bloating and my hair shedding had slowed down) have gone now in the last week and I just feel completely normal - which is further adding to the stress. I’m waking up in the middle of the night worrying and unable to get back to sleep - so I’m exhausted due to that now too.

I just feel all that’s going to put my mind at ease is seeing the heartbeat again to know that everything is still ok. I have my first appointment with the doctor on the 12th of May. I know they won’t scan me then as I’ve already had my dating scan - but I also can’t keep paying for private scans.

We’ve only told parents and siblings so far - and I’m so hesitant to tell anyone else because of how anxious I am. I really want to be excited and tell people but I just can’t.

Has anyone just presented to CUMH to ask for a reassurance scan? Did they just tell you to go away? Did you need a referral from your GP?

Any advice at all would be greatly appreciated.