16M with OCD and BDD and I feel really insecure.

Hi. This is a bit of a vent as well as a question.

I know that it’s more common now, but I haven’t had my first kiss or anything yet. I feel like I’m falling behind and I see my friends getting girlfriends and whatever and I wonder if there’s something wrong with me.

I have really bad OCD about a whole lot of things and my brains been transferring this whole worry about not getting a girlfriend to my body. Im insecure about my face, how my teeth look, how I’m 5’9 in North Dakota…I just exhaust myself over every little minuscule thing and I hate it!

I suppose I’ll get the same advice I get and they’ll tell me I should focus on myself more, but I can’t. I cant just focus on myself and hope for the best because my brain demands complete, 100% certainty or else it thinks I’m going to die alone. I know I’m probably being unrealistic, but that doesn’t make the thoughts any less real.

My question is: How do I put myself out there, whether it’s now or in the future when things have settled down? How do I feel good about myself when my mind is constantly screaming about how horrible or unappealing to women I am? I don’t even know where to get started with this.

Thank you