19 year old in nepal. Is 19-25 age brutal for everyone specially male? Or is it just me?"

Like am 19 year old and nothing seems to work out, I tried going abroad my family said they didn't have the money to fund me. I already knew it and am also not that good at study anyway so i already expected it.

Even though i did studied really hard in my +2 i got 2.9 gpa in +2 which was brutal for me. I got 5.5 in all my ielts test. I waited for 6-10 months to do my ielts and i scored 5.5 it like life just said f*ck you to me.

I tried doing job and i left it and tried starting a business kawaie_co which seems like a side hustle more then a business. I sold around 24 calendars. And earned like double of my investments. In english year and nepali year. Well i also learned that scalability is also a thing in the business

But now idk what to do cause calendar only sales at new year. So am trying to find a job but i have moved in bhaktapur. Job market is too brutal for me here.

I have trying find some remote job where i can earn in dollar.

And am questioning myself like do. I have any future all the time. I haven't been sleeping well.. because of my future thoughts.