Hardly gathered the courage to seek advice here

I'm too 18F and a single child and this was too my 1st drop in neet and it got wasted too

I too deals with depression and take medications for it..used to be a topper till 12th and failed my first attempt in neet and going to fail second too, don't know how will I face my family

I didn't know that..I would cause this kind of disappointment to my parents..I always made them proud.,so never in my life , I imagined that I'll disappoint them in terms of academics , scoring even less than 300s

I genuinely want to be a doctor..it was my dream since childhood and still it is my dream & i can't see myself in any other profession....but I'm seeing this dream shattering Infront of my eyes this year too

The sheer amount of disappointment my parents will be feeling after my second attempt is unimaginable to me , I FAILED as a daughter,

Yess for me ...I'm at the lowest point in my life now...I sometimes even think to end all of this, but I'm not able too , I don't have that courage

This is not what..I had imagined , i always used to top but i can't cope up with the failures now ...I wish i could escape or have the guts for that