Frustrated and im starting to think its probably me

So this may come off as whiny but ehh I need to vent. I've been posting trying to find and AP for a while now and absolutely zero luck. I mean I didnt expect a flood of people answering but geez. I dont knowif im not great at trying to sell myself to people so maybe its my post or hell maybe im just not meant to find someone, who knows but...damm. Honestly its taken a bit of a toll on my already shaky self esteem just thinking about it.

Update. Thank y'all for the ones that commented, it certainly was enlightening. There were alot of helpful things said and I appreciate it.