Just found out about the term "symbolic abuse."

Has anyone else suffered from symbolic abuse? Like when their abuser(s) do something that others might not immediately identify as abuse, but it genuinely puts you into a state of fight or flight? I feel so alone with something I've been experiencing. They've been doing something harmful to me but have "plausible deniability." They know it's harmful to me, and that I don't like it, but they do it anyway. I would say what it is they do, but I don't want to give out any identifying information because it's specific, and it's related to stalking behavior. If I wanted to get a PFH, I need to "prove intent" which is so hard to do in my case. The police officer I spoke to told me I could try and get a PFH, but he had concerns that if I wasn't able to get it, the behavior might ramp up. He also refused to give them a verbal warning, and I can't fully blame him because the situation is so complex.

I have a therapist who diagnosed me with PTSD, but she straight up told me she doesn't truly know how to help because my fear, anxiety, and hypervigilance is a "normal" human response within the context of what I'm going through. Mindfulness, reframing, and breathing exercises can only do so much when you're actively being traumatized. The only thing that sort of helps me is DBT/radical acceptance.

I'm just so utterly exhausted. I'm tired of evil people making my life living hell, all my life it's just been hell. If it's not witnessing horrific DV as a child, almost dying at 15 from an autoimmune disorder, than it's being stalked in adulthood. I just want to live in peace for once in my life. I'd even take being eternally bored because at least my nervous system wouldn't always be activated. My chronic illness is acting up tonight because of the stress, and I have pain on the right side of my head all of a sudden because of ts.

I'm sorry for the rant, and thank you for reading this far. I just needed to get it out.