You wanted to know

You wanted to know if you affect me like I affect you. I think if we look at what went wrong we can see that you did, explicitly. I tried to explain the feelings. That I was trying to understand myself. If I'm going to be a bit selfish, at this moment, I would like to say that I'm disappointed. I always came back to you as a lover even when you would push me away and then come back. It doesn't justify my actions and the things I said, like I just want to be friends. I just wish you would have given me a bit more grace.

I've stopped drinking entirely. I don't smoke weed. I'm working on myself in all of the ways that you want. And I just feel so much melancholy about the fact that it's just too late.

I don't want to be friends. And I'll take you back in a heartbeat.