Christianity stole so many life experiences from me, it feels like an undeserved self-imposed prison sentence.

Man, again, I thought I was over Christianity, but with the resurgence of Christian Nationalists in American government all I can think about is how much fucking time I ABSOLUTELY WASTED in my early teens-early adult years trying to please these fucking frauds.

Number one, I'd have probably been much less socially awkward. I would've been more outgoing, less "offended" by things I knew deep down didn't really offend me for shit, lest I go straight to hell. I might've had a fucking girlfriend instead of waiting for "Miss Perfect" to never come along or hell, just be way cooler in general.

But no... I fell into a fucking Evangelical cult that got me having a mid-life fucking crisis at 25-years-old in Japan when I suddenly realized that I might've been lied to my entire life. That God wasn't real and how the absolute fuck was I supposed to deal with that?

But I processed it. Let that coin flip hang in the air for way longer than it should've. And then it turned up atheist with a bit of an agnostic bent if I'm being honest.

I'm still bummed though. Even ten years later it really pisses me off. I really am jealous of the dude who can say "You know, if I had to do it all over again, I wouldn't change a thing" because I know FOR A FACT, I would change an absolute FUCKTON of things.

But what can you do? Life is life. All we can do is accept the choices we've made and move on, good or bad. Still miffs me thinking about that shit though.