My momma and papa hates me and that's okay.

I think I don't deserve to live.

My mom and dad hates me and never fails to remind that I ruined them, their reputation and am always the cause of their fights.

I was thinking of ending it all na lang para wala na masabi kasi I think death is the only way out.

I tried to overdose myself pero unsuccessful, I also tried self-harm by slitting my wrists pero nakonsensya ako mid-way. My dog was just staring at me and wagging her tail.

I can't leave her behind, nobody's going to take care of my buddy.

Sometimes naiisip ko na di ba nila naririnig sarili nila na sa pagsasabi ng mga harsh words. I mean I'd choose physical pain over stinging words anytime. I receive both and its okay. Deserve ko naman.

Momma always tells me that I have to give back in return when I get a job and everything. I've been giving her and pops my salary, I don't even have any savings to leave kasi they use it for house needs. I only make much for a month's expense.

They blame me for everything, kahit naging selfish ako one time para maging masaya outside of my comfort zone, I was happy for a year because I wasn't with them. Now I'm back. The pain is excruciating.

Mom also tells me I'm ugly and bobo + imperfect unlike her to lola. She compares me to everyone even herself. And I can't help but think she's right.

The crack is starting to spread, guys.

I think I can't take it anymore. I'm tired.

Thanks for listening.