Feeling alone, unloved and tired

It’s, me, my partner and my two kids together in a home. But I’m the only one who cares much about anything. Between cleaning, cooking, making sure the youngest is at soccer practice and chasing the oldest to get anything done.

I lost my job like three weeks ago for no reason and I’ve been having the toughest time trying to hold back how pissed off I am because that’s not going to help. But I’m starting to realize no one else is going to help either.

I’m firing off applications and getting interviews and doing well but I feel like I’m the only one who’s excited - like everyone else is just expecting it.

No one asks me during the day how I’m doing and if I need a hug or anything. I’m so anxious and upset I’m not eating right and I feel like when she comes back from vacation is just going to comment that I look like I haven’t eaten, not why I haven’t eaten or how I’ve been holding myself together while she’s away on a trip.

For the record I don’t expect anyone to help with anything. I don’t expect anyone to care because whenever I do, people just let me down.