(18+) I sexually coerced my ex and I feel awful over it.

The situation has been brought back up because of the movie Barbarian, where Justin Longs character AJ pressures a girl in to sex and gets rape accusations.

This is where it leads in to my actions

I sexually coerced my online ex-girlfriend a year ago. I consistently asked her if I coula masturbate on a voice call online. She eventually said yes, we tried it and I got uncomfortable and stopped.

We later spoke, and we talked about how it felt wrong. I apologised, and she forgave me. She said that while what happened was bad, she wasn't affected by it and that it was a mistake that shouldn't be repeated. She's said she forgives me. But what l've done still eats at me. We're good friends to this day.

I never thought of myself as that type of person, now I feel I deserve to be in Prison. Even though she forgives me, I know so many people would hate me and think l'm a terrible person.

I genuinely want to kill myself.