unrelated

doctor says my eye rash is unrelated 😈

hell ya

still too scared to up dose tho

i believe ive officially made rent for this month👉👈

now to start all over again 🌝

feeling fully and totally cooked rn.

BUT i’m doing it.

going to start looking for someone to adopt my cat crunchie so she can have a better life. breaks my heart to say that but it’s really best for her long term. been about 10 years together i do wish someone i was close to could take her selfishly so i could keep tabs on her. lots of reasons that are really deep but at the end of the day im just not a cat person and she deserves someone who can give her all that love. she’s so fucking loud and i get migraines/overstimulated. i love her but she needs more room or attention or other cats and i just can’t give her that. i can’t ever stretch or relax without her swarming me or screaming at me for food. its exhausting im sure for her too. i’m just not a cat person especially after getting a dog. and that sucks to say. not to mention the mental health aspect she’s just a high maintenance cat and sometimes i can hardly take care of myself. ive thought about rehoming her for 4 years or more, ive been avoiding it but the last couple months have been a big breaking point for me. been pretty ashamed to talk about or admit it.

a lot of stuff souping in my brain rn. especially hard when i don’t have stable long term employment but tryna keep on keepin on.

and smack dab in the middle of that is not dealing with my papa passing.

idk how to do it all rn.

tbd.

hope your week is being hella good to you. tips are fat. you’re able to unclench your jaw. and that you find peace when you lay your head on your pillow tonite.

maybe i should start drawing again? 🧐 maybe that will heal me

xo,

k