I lost all of my friends today

I’m 18M, and until recently I really thought I had two friends for life.

Let’s call them Riya and Rohit.

We were school best friends. I never even tried to make many other friends because the three of us were enough for me.

After 12th, Riya went to college and me and Rohit took a drop in 2025. Rohit took a drop for no real reason, and I took one to prepare for NEET and keep abroad bachelor’s as a backup. I didn’t tell them the full truth because I wanted to surprise them later. I just said I was confused and would figure it out.

I studied till October, but then some accidents and operations kept me away from studies for almost a month. After that I just lost my rhythm and couldn’t fully get back on track.

By December, my backup plan became my only plan.

Since then I’ve been preparing for IELTS and entrance exams for universities in Poland, Italy, and other European countries. Because of that I couldn’t meet them in person, but I still tried to make time to talk, at least on Zoom.

Even before October, when I met Riya, she told me she didn’t like college. She said all her college friends were wannabe and trying too hard to be main characters. I told her, “Don’t worry, you have us.”

A couple of weeks ago she blocked me on Instagram after I tried sending her a meme about her height. I asked her what happened, because after 5 years of friendship I thought I at least deserved an answer.

So i messaged her on WhatsApp, she told me I was too busy for them, and that whenever she needed us, I wasn’t there, but her college friends were. Then she said they told her to block me, so she did. And just after saying that she block me on WhatsApp as well.

That hit hard, because me and Rohit were the ones who helped her through her breakup and family problems. Our whole school knew the three of us were always together.
In every situation even if one of us did something, we all three get punished for that why because teachers and principal said why did she/he did that weren’t you there to stop her/him or you are also a part..
Everyone knows and said that they will be frnds for together becuz theyy are also together no matter what.

But still let it go, i thought mybe if 1 month frndship snd break 4-5 year old frndship then mybe somewhere i was wrong.

Then today at 1 AM, while I was studying Italian, I saw Rohit’s message:

“Tu ek achha dost tha, but I have to block you because my new girlfriend told me.”

And i was like abhi to recover hi hora tha isne b..?
I didnt said anything i just sat down on my chair and stopped studying.

I taught till 4 am today.
Maybe I’m overthinking it, but right now I keep wondering if I did something wrong.

I made a post before about getting accepted in Italy, but now I just feel empty. I have no one to share it with anymore.
Na meri koi GF, ab na koi dost. Now its just me. Alone😭😭