I am a voreaphiliac and it has ruined me.

It is ruining my life.

This is a throwaway acc because i genuinely would rather die than know that my friends came across this post.

For thoes who are unaware, vore is a fetish around eating or being eaten whole by another creature, i wont describe it in detail bc i know how gross it seems to normal people.

This parasite of a fetish started in my brain before i can remember, thus its influenced my life in subtle ways since i was a child, and as ive started viewing this content, ive started realizing it. This addiction has a fucking gag on me, i cant tell anyone, because of how shameful this is, i would lose so many friends if anybody found out, and all i want is to just admit this.

ive been spiraling more into addiction in the past year, i dont fucking know what to do. I have my therapist, but i couldnt bring myself to tell her. I feel like im on a slippery slope, i know im addicted, but its already fucked up my brain. I feel weak for not being able to tell anybody, but this is all i have.

ive avoided this part of me, i never draw it, i never make accounts on websites, but ive realized now that i become what i hate about myself

Whenever i see this stuff i feel so warm and fuzzy inside, and when its over i feeling like rotting, a disgusting weirdo on the internet. Im losing myself.

please dont judge me too harshly