I hate hyper sexuality

Pls no weird people in my dms

How do I cope with this. Ive been on the internet sinceI was 6 and have been talked to sexually ever since. Over time I started being sexual just to feel loved amd when my long term boyfriend would tell me he didn’t want to be it rlly hurt. Even now I just have guys asking me to be sexual on the dl and never anything serious or romantic. I honestly think thats why im still so in love with my ex is because he could balance both of those. Whenever I would cry I would just be sexual with him afterwards and I hate it sm

Wtf do i do