There are no safe spaces, people will always assume you are lying.

I debated posting this because I don't like ranting, usually it concludes to nothing. Thay said, I am trying to heal from what happened to me, I am trying to own my own story instead of letting it own me.

So, I felt like this would be a safe space to share it and begin doing that. When I was abused I told my aunt, she said "that's what boys do, I told you not to go in his room" like it was my fault for wanting to be a kid and play with toys. I told my friends, but they accused me of lying instead of hearing my pain and supporting me. So I shoved my story down, I allowed it to control me, change my being, and affect my life to the point I had lost who I was.

I hoped to find others who would understand, who would support me and tell me it wasn't actually my fault, who would tell me I was a CHILD and not something that should have been seen as sexual.

Instead, my post got a 50% down vote. That means half of readers either thought my post was not serious enough, was a lie, or not worthy to be shared. 50% of people on a page that is supposed to be supportive, inclusive, understanding, and accepting did not believe my story.

As someone who has not been believed since day 1, this hurt me more than I thought it would. This hurt me more that it probably should have, but it was just a reminder to the words said that day.

I am tired of not being believed, and I am starting to think there is no true safe space for people who suffered from sexual abuse. I had to fight my cousin off of me at the age of 8, no 8 year old should ever have to do that, but I DID.