Never enough

I have been working at the same place for almost a year and they are now saying that they are considering me to be an actual employee rather than an apprentice. Anything that I don’t know, hasn’t been taught to me in full. And I would like to say I’m a pretty good worker. I have great work ethic and I pay attention to detail. If you ask me to do something, I will get it done, but sometimes I feel like it’s such a slap to my face. I work myself until I’m tired and exhausted. Until I triple check my work. I don’t allow myself to slack, and when I do, just know something is wrong. But I feel stuck. I still feel like the bag lady, i can do certain things but not everything (which is very fucking weird to me because I want to learn) but I’m just exhausted right now. Nothing I ever do seems to be enough and i want to be enough. I want to get better. And that’s what it feels like. It feels like I’m good but not better.