nobody told me that surviving a 9-5 would leave nothing left for actually living

i'm not lazy. i actually like learning stuff. there's so much i want to read, watch, get into. but by the time i get back home after commuting and sitting through 8-9 hours of work i have nothing left.i sit down and i can't even choose what to watch, let alone open a book or work on something. and then i feel guilty about it. like i wasted another evening.but also… when exactly was i supposed to do it? between the commute and the meetings and the mental load of just existing at a job all day?i don't think it's a discipline problem. i think we're just running on empty and nobody really acknowledges that. does anyone else feel this way or have you actually figured something out?