Getting extremely angry with myself for making mistakes

Anyone else relate? I’m trying my hardest to teach myself math because I am not satisfied with going through the rest of my life merely hating it and feeling like I can never do it. I really want to try and improve as much as my brain will allow. However, I get super pissed off at myself when doing what could be considered “basic” calculations and I make a mistake. I can’t help it.

It just reinforces this feeling of being inadequate and like I’ll never truly be okay with math. I hate to sound depressing and I’m not trying to get sympathy, I just felt I needed to write about this. I am autistic as well, so I admit I do get overwhelmed rather easily. I literally tore up a piece of paper earlier that I was doing sums on. I was kinda like a furious ape when I did it 😂