M35, Married, need a slut

M35, Married, need a slut

I have a much higher drive than my wife to the point I'll be wanting to eat her out and fuck all day, but I really need to keep myself repressed because shes not like that. Even when we do fuck I know I have a dirty side I cant let out because shes really just into vanilla missionary fucking. Most of the nights like tonight I can't sleep because I'm aching too badly while she sleeps next to me. I couldn't resist and started stroking and now I can't stop. She views any kind of porn as cheating so I know she'd be mad, but it feels too good and I'm so pent-up.