What is a wlw with gross hands to do

Okay so this would be gross for anyone, but it’s especially problematic as someone who tops people. I had basically a massive immune system failure a few months back, due to an illness. I got all sorts of yeast infections, new allergies, etc. but another thing that happened, is that legit like 7 warts (I know I’m sorry you can stop reading) appeared across my two hands all at once 😫 I know from experience as a child, these fuckers are fucking stubborn. I got lucky and all mine from childhood went away, but I have a friend who still has theirs, and to be honest…I always saw it as a bit of a turn off (like, in terms of sexual interest, which had crossed my mind because we’re both queer and sometimes you get those what ifs about friends) just because of the fear of it spreading 😭 they are very small, I’ve been trying to treat them but my doctor told me that it’s honestly just pretty hard to get rid of. They are so small you wouldn’t notice unless you are looking very closely at my hands, but they are truly all over, like, I won’t even be able to hold hands with someone without feeling wrong.

As a gay girlie I feel like my hands are kind of like, my selling point, I’m just so grossed out and don’t even know how to handle this tbh 😣