Just need recommendations

Hello everyone,

I’ve posted here multiple times over the last two years, and honestly, I’m exhausted from having to come back. I’ve tried rehab, IOP, counseling—everything—but I keep ending up in the same place.

My addiction really took off in January 2025 after my brother passed away. Before that, I knew what 7 was and used it a few times a week recreationally. But after he died, things spiraled. I got up to over 1000mg daily, using just to numb everything. During that period, I lost my job, my cat died, and my grandmother passed as well. Instead of dealing with any of it, I just kept using.

At this point, I’ve gone through physical withdrawal five separate times in the last two years.

In December, things got really bad—I had six seizures in one night from 7OH use and ended up fracturing six spots in my back. That was a wake-up call. My wife told me if I ever went back to it again, she would leave.

That scared me enough to stop for a bit. But about a week after the withdrawals ended, I convinced myself I could handle it and started dosing once a day again. Around that time, I found the 7Stax 80mg Nano MIT tabs and actually started liking them more than 7OH. Since January, I’ve been using those daily, with occasional 7OH use mixed in.

This past weekend was the lowest point yet. I genuinely don’t know how I’m still alive. Over 48 hours, I took 40 2mg alprazolam bars, 20 tapentadol pills, and about 1500mg of 7OH. I completely missed my wife’s birthday and everything we had planned.

That was it for me. I’m done. I don’t want to live like this anymore.

Now I’m starting to feel physical withdrawals coming on again. I truly want to get clean this time, but mornings are brutal—zero dopamine, no motivation, no drive to do anything. It takes everything in me not to go down the street and take 100mg of 7 just to feel somewhat normal.

I’m mainly looking for encouragement and advice on how to get through the PAWS phase, especially the lack of motivation and energy. How do you push through that and get to the other side?

Also, if I taper using the 7Stax MIT tabs instead of 7OH, am I just prolonging the process?

Thank you if you’ve made it this far.