Need help🚨😭

Hi, i got 36%ile in my jan attempt and 20%ile in the april attempt and i lied to my parents that i got 83 and 80. I'm from maharashtra and have the option of giving MHT CET but I haven't even studied for it yet and it is in almost 2 weeks. I'm totally stressed which is resulting in not studying again. I already feel tired without doing anything bcoz of overthinking. I want to take a drop to give myself a second chance because there's no other option left. I have lost my ability to make decisions and think of consequences of lying and not doing. Idk what am i even asking for but just suggest me something if you can. And it's not like i am dumb or so. It's because I didn't work hard enough In fact I just wasted these most important years of my life. Also i didnt understand that correct direction to study and I panicked a lot which then demotivated me. I went away from my home which turned out to be the biggest mistake ive ever made as i got in the comfort zone and stopped studying. But i really want to prove myself. Plz help me out.

Also if you guys can suggest some online platforms or teachers or anything that helped you. I'd be more than grateful