Should I send this in a letter to my ex?

Hey \_\_\_

I know it's probably over between us, but I just wanted to write and wish you the best. I love you so much which is what makes this so hard. I am so incredibly grateful that I got to meet you and share a part of my life with a girl as amazing as you. 

you're such a light in this world. I'm furthering my beliefs in christianity and I want you to know that you're such a good example of God's love to everyone you're around. Even if most people around you are being mean or judgemental, you're always nice back and I respect that aspect about you so much. I really love your character \_\_\_\_\_. 

I know sometimes you feel like you're not enough or you're “pathetic”, but baby you're not. You're so strong and just so amazing. I wish you could see yourself through my eyes. I know I won't get to reassure and compliment you anymore because I want to respect the space you need, but I am still going to be praying that you can see yourself in the most positive way you can. 

What we had meant so much to me \_\_\_\_. It was so real in a way that I had not experienced before. We loved each other so deeply and I know you will always have a special place in my heart \_\_\_\_. I know you don't think you can ever trust me again, but I hope you can see that I always tried my best to be honest with you and love you how you wanted to be loved. 

I understand you think you can’t trust me anymore. I also understand why. I have taken responsibility for that, and I am working on myself in so many ways that I should have before.  Not for the sake of getting you back, but because I know I need to grow into a better man. I have been seeing my therapist and I am meeting to talk to a church leader who went through a similar experience with his wife. They worked through so much together.

If there ever is a chance in the future I would take it even more seriously and do things the right way, but I also understand if that chance never comes. I respect whatever it is you decide. 

Maybe in the distant future we'll see each other and smile, I hope. Maybe we'll catch up with each other, until then I wish you the best in everything you do. I love you so much and I'll always care for you \_\_\_\_. 

Maybe we’ll talk again someday, but even if we do not I will always be grateful for what we had. If you ever feel like reaching out I would welcome that, but no pressure at all. 

Love, /////