I never realized just how serious ADHD was.

I’ve been treated for anxiety from the time I was 22 years old (now, 25m). I always had just about the worst anxiety specifically when I was a kid. Just a constant radio of worrying thoughts. I would eat my tshirts, chew on plastic, etc. just really wacky stuff. Sadly, I never got this checked out as my parents divorced, and frankly I was a bit ignored at the time due to family drama and all.

I went to a psychiatrist who informed me that I can treat this, and after a few meetings he actually asked me a bit more about my day to day life, and how I would do this thing where I would buy a $2,000 item, do nothing with it then sell it or return it. He had mentioned ADHD, and connected a lot of things from my daily life to it.

I was prescribed Adderall. At first, didn’t work too well. I felt really nothing (5mg in the morning, 5mg at night). I also take Effexor, so sometimes that kick would last longer than the IR dose was supposed to but I didn’t mind it. Eventually tried Vyvanse, and it was okay, but just didn’t do much.

Now I’m on 10mg Adderall and still sometimes feel like it’s not the best but it’s definitely a start, and I do feel my brain quiet sometimes.

I guess the point of my post is, I thought back on all of these things in my life and I kind of came to the conclusion that not having these things treated really screwed me later in life. You look back on those times where you didn’t ask for help, or no one got you help, and you get sad at that thought.

In my personal life, a lot of people don’t take ADHD seriously, or that it’s not something to be treated. Frankly, I feel insulted by it because this shit kinda wrecked my life from the time I was 10-21, really having to do something about it by the time I was 22. It just dawned on me how it can really wreck stuff up.

Looking for maybe some relation on this, something I’ve had bouncing in my mind for 2 months now.