I caught my Bf looking at porn in the middle of having sex…

So I’ve been dating my bf for about five months now, He’s 23 and I am 19. When we first started having sex he wasn’t able to cum because of a porn addiction. He stopped watching as soon as we were together but he was still just messed up from doing it for so long. Anyways in the beginning of our relationship I expressed that I think watching porn while in a relationship is cheating because why tf would you need to get off on videos or pictures of other chicks, and he agreed with me. Lately he hasn’t been texting me or talking to me nearly as much as he used too, and was kind of down in the dumps a lot, and when we would have sex it felt like he wasn’t even enjoying it and it just felt off. The other day we both woke up and we were having sex but he couldn’t stay hard and he was really sweaty. So, he stopped for a bit and I had my back turned cuz I was catching my breath as well and he was on his phone and then I turn around and I kiss him and he outs his phone under the pillow and I didn’t think anything of it. But now he was hard and we had sex again and he finished this time. After that he was cooling down in front of the fan and his phone alarm goes off from under the pillow, so I grab it and then it off. His phone was opened and when I turned the alarm off it was on a google browser of a bunch of pictures of a bunch of busty blonde girls getting fucked. He dint see me react I just looked at it out his phone down and sat there for a minute.

After a little bit of processing what I just saw I said “what the fuck did I just see on your phone” and he just looked at me and said absolutely nothing, he looked mortified that I caught him. After he said nothing I went to the bathroom cuz I was crying and I couldn’t look at him and just needed to think. When I went back into the room I told him I was gonna uber home but he wanted me to stay and talk abt it. So I did.

He explained that he’s been really depressed and me and him haven’t been seeing each other as much lately and he just kind started watching porn again. He was saying that when he starts it’s like he doesn’t even watch it for the looks and it’s like he needs a storyline and shit. But he can’t just look at one thing he explained it like doomscrolling on TikTok or something like he needs to be watching a variety. I know porn addiction is real and he feels gross abt it and ashamed but I don’t know how to feel about this. I can tell he genuinely feels bad and in no way did he shut down my feelings abt this but I don’t if I’m being dumb by believing what he says.

I in general am not very confident and since me and him started dating I was starting to gain a little confidence. Also he’s the first person Ive ever really been with besides when I was assaulted a while back. He has been with a lot of people and I try not to let it bother me but this situation is kind of bringing all my feelings abt that out. But anyways I feel like all the confidence I gained and all the trust we built is gone. When he calls me pretty I don’t believe him because he needs to look at other girls to get hard. I notice him checking out other girls and I shut down. I feel like I’m not good enough for him now and I don’t know what to do. I love him but i don’t trust him anymore. What do I do?