i've given up on you. you shot a hole in my heart straight through

i guess i just wasn't worth being treated with the bare minimum, basic human dignity and communication

hope you *actually* show up for the people you say you care about rather than just claim to

nothing to regret here. can't truly grieve what never really existed in the first place

it was merely potential but not really even that

because i was never even given a choice

and i finally understand that *i* deserve better than both of you

i deserve someone who backs declarations of love up with actions, not just empty words and unfulfilled promises, someone who doesn't leave me drowning in uncertainty every step of the way

you never had any intention of coming through for me or meeting me halfway, and for months i tried to clear every obstacle you placed in front of me to "prove" my worth to you only for you to move the finish line again. i was set up for failure from the start so i could never be what you wanted me to be.

i gave up on you

and you never even gave me a fair chance at all

treat the next person with the consideration and follow through you denied me