Life is so unfair 😞

I don't know how to tell about this! I came to Bengaluru from my home town for a job. Make myself independent financially and mentally. My parents were not agreeing to this decision they had fixed my marriage with a government employee guy at my home town. But I was not ready and till now also. So I ran away from my home town without completing my graduation and reached Bengaluru and easily got a job in the BPO sector with an average package (around 22k ) Life is going smoothly no family contacts no pressure of getting married and all. I took a 1BHK at rent at BTM, stayed alone and all.

It's been almost a year and a half, my life is going here but suddenly I got a very strange offer from dating apps and reddit also. I met an elite group of girls at a club and got to know they are into escorting ( s\*ual service). They all called themselves business women and earned more money than me. Go to a high class party,pubs,involved in a dating app scam and those things made them earn more.

On the other hand, going to the office, getting scolded by the manager or TL , pressure for doing work before the time line and bla bla things i faced to earn just 22K every month. Really??? When I see their luxurious life i feel depressed.

Sometimes I think why will I put my time and energy into the office and make myself prove to everyone???

If those girls are doing that stuff and all luxurious life style why not i, what made me stop to do those.????

Today was a labour day but still I didn't get any holiday from my office even coming weekend means Saturday and Sunday also i have to go office. Such a pathetic life.

I come from a middle class from childhood I saw a struggle to get everything.

I stop making friends nowadays because when I scroll their instagram profile it makes me sentimental. Sometimes I feel there is no value in morality . Sometimes I think the end of my life will get rid of this. 😞