Please can someone give me advice. I beg you. I have no one to ask in person.

Hi. I am really scared to start med school. My father says I am not capable of being one because he thinks why do mbbs when I can do masters and earn money soon and he says that I am a woman so I should think of my future family and consider a safer and easier career. He says what if he dies and mom dies how will I handle med school. Mom sometimes insults me by saying “you are only capable of getting offer from two unis” and “ i pressured you and was strict yet you got all Bs not As in your A levels” and “I will be only proud when you graduate as a doc”.

since I was a kid I wanted to be a doctor. I got no reasons I just wanted to be one. Like my heart chose it. therefore I worked hard to Be a great student but my classmates bullied and mocked me about not being capable.

I considered not being a doc for a year yet I was doing volunteering but whenever I saw a doc in hospital I cried in the corner. even when I take my family to doc I quietly cry. Idk why the hell I am so stuck up to This dream when I don’t even know the reason Why I want to be a doc.

I suffer from ocd, severe anxiety and also depression and I feel like this will cause me trouble cause it has done lots of damage in my life. I feel like I am not capable of being a doc and I will lose.

I don’t have time to think or else my parents will get me married. I am so scared.

sorry for venting, it’s my first time and probably last too.

thanks for reading. Any words would help