Posting it here because some of us are here because of sheer loneliness

my parents are going through medical stuff right now and i’m handling most of it. it’s exhausting in a way i didn’t expect. like i’m functioning, getting things done, but mentally i feel all over the place.

and in between all this, i keep getting this feeling like… i miss someone. not a specific person. just someone.

like i wish there was a person i could sit with at the end of the day and just be quiet and not have to hold everything together for a bit.

i notice it in small things. like when i say something in a low voice and no one really hears me. or when i’m in some situation and i feel like i’m not “street smart” enough and i just end up feeling stupid after. those moments hit harder than they should.

and i keep thinking it would be so nice to have someone next to me who just… gets it. someone a little more sorted, a little more grounded. someone who kind of has my back in those moments.

the weird part is i don’t even have a person in mind. it’s just this feeling of missing a presence i’ve never really had.