I feel anxious

I have so many intrusive thoughts and anxieties and whenever I listen to my playlist, I get anxious that I’m making it all come true. I want to listen to my playlist but mentally, Im not functioning well and feel intense anxiety and fear. I really need to change my life and my playlist can help with that but I feel so scared. I even make my own subliminals but I still feel scared that Im attracting things that I don’t want.