Do you remember the first time you had good sex and who it was with?

I’m a lady (24) I’ve had sex with 3 men in my life. All of them have made me cum at some point during the time I was involved romantically with them so it’s not like I’ve missed out

To preface the last man I slept with ended pretty badly, 100% my fault. I lied about things to end the relationship because I was unsure how to navigate a relationship with a mental health gap, age gap, financial gap, the list goes on and my reasons are endless because I’m human and any excuse could do.

He gave me some of the best orgasms I’ve ever had, it’s been eight fucking months since I’ve slept with him. If I think about any of our encounters I immediately start sweating, I can feel my heart beat in my vagina, my stomach starts rolling and my mouth reacts before my brain and I moan out loud it’s like my body can’t control it? This happens to me every single day even if I busy my self to the point I’m leaving no open time to even think. I can only get off when I masturbate if I’m thinking of him, I’ve tried everything to not have to. I have dreams of him touching me. I feel It’s starting to affect the way I think, I want to text this man constantly, I have to leave my phone behind when I go places to minimize the chance I have to react on the thought. I’ve thought about \*67 and calling him while masturbating like a fucking crazy person. I just don’t know what to do I need this to stop. I’m getting the itch to act like a loon. Please any advice.

1. Is this normal to be like this over someone I ended things with?
2. Is it normal for me to remember our sex so vividly and be affected by it months later?
3. Is this the classic get under someone to get over someone? Do I just need someone else to make me cum to stop thinking about this man?