Question - how *do* you meditate?

Happy Friday!

I have been reading / contemplating the concepts of the Ra Material / LoO for the past year. I understand that Ra, many times over, suggests that one meditates.

Here is where the problem lies, and frankly, it’s probably because I don’t nearly do it enough, but I’ll ask anyways:

*How does one meditate?*

I understand that you must clear your mind, and to just let things flow in and through. My problem is that I focus too hard on remaining blank and clear. I often focus on ignoring the passive thoughts or mental visualizations. I’ve tried a few of the Gateway Tapes, and actually did manage to catch a few Phosphenes, but nothing super notable happened.

Something in my gut has been pushing me, slowly but surely, to meditate. An urge, almost. I’ve been getting “flickers” of what feels like external / separate mental dialogue that I can’t fully catch, like a choppy radio reception, as I go about my day or realizations that I must meditate. It’s the spiritual version / feeling / analogy of having a really chunky zit that’s now and finally ready to pop. You just know.

I feel as if my “inbox” is full of notifications. I have a gut feeling that something, or myself, is trying to get in contact with me. I’m just unmotivated due to “failed” previous attempts, I guess?

Does anyone have any input for a beginner? Thanks, all.