idk abt this anymore…

so idk if u all saw but there was that one girl venting abt her friend who cheated on interviews for ucl

And idk dude it makes me feel so fucking shitty bro like I have 0 offers everyday without fail someone always js calls me an offerless bum at least once per day and idk i js wanted to vent like I applied to ucl asw my stats were perfect top 1 percent ucat and 4A* predicted w a lot of 9s at gcse

and like usually i dont get upset im usually the one helping ppl who are upset but bro I js started bawling I feel so worthless like all my suffering, me gaining 10kg during ucat(cuz I was doing that everyday straight for 10 hrs), revising and making notes until my fingers calloused and were starting peel off, doing everything I possibly could to make sure I get an offer it all js feels so fucking worthless bro cuz the only thing I have to show for it now are the insults ‘offerless bum’ everyday at skl

and to think that certain ppl cheating are the cause like what if I was one space away from getting the offer and the person didn’t cheat and it’s gotten to the point where like I even be skipping church cuz it’s like why would god do that to me

I js wanted some place to vent sooo yeah