If I can find a good hime for my cat I am going to end it

I am a loser a piece of shit. Every one of my friends is infinitely more successful. I hate my job...I faiked at relationahips over and over and now Im invisible at 56. I onky amassed a small amount of money and am now living in the ghetto. In the end drinking a Guiness in a warm bath and getting the cut right is what I want. I am a piece of shit and my life was a disgrace. I hate myself