How I (29m) found my kink

I love giving massages

It all started with the first girl ever went out with. I was so nervous. She was the most beautiful person I had ever seen, and I thought there was no way in hell she would want to spend time with someone like me, but when I asked her out and she said yes, I felt like my heart was about to beat out of my chest.

We spent the day at the mall, walking from the store to store, talking and joking. Then taking a hike, and getting high on the trail before I drove her back to her house.

We went to her room laid on her bed just talking and watching TV for hours. I remember looking at her and thinking how cute she was, how deep her eyes were, how silky her hair looked rolling over her shoulders, but I was too nervous to make move.

After a long time, she told me I could touch her. We made out for awhile, cuddling, and caressing on the bed. My hands running up and down her spine, my face buried in the crook of her neck. Her arms wrapped around my shoulders, her hot breath rushing over my ear

I had recently watched massage video for the first time and thought it was sexy, so I asked her if I could give her one.

My hands were shaking the entire time they slid over her back. I remember being so worried that she could tell

how nervous I was. it must’ve been okay because as I was finishing on her legs and had made zero real moves, she told me that I didn’t have to stop there. It was the hottest thing I had ever heard. I was clumsy and shaky, but at the time it was the happiest I had ever been.

That experience lit a fire inside of me to become better at massage. I bought books, took classes, practiced on anyone who would let me.

Now I can’t imagine sex without it. Watching someone relax, then slowly turn on as my hands glide over their body makes me feel so connected with my partner. It’s my favorite thing.